Insecure

I always hold back,afraid of hurting others.I never say what i really have to,i don’t want to seem mean.But no one else does that.People are so vicious and undercutting and pure evil when they want to be.

I am anxious and nervous,i always second guess myself,my confidence is nil. Wether its my weight or how i look i always seem to have a problem with myself.I dont want to.But i do.

I sometimes blame social media as its a mirror for destruction.the media portrays people who are so immaculate can we ever get close to them.but i cant blame the media.I have been gifted a brain i have to use it wisely right? i have to understand to be happy with myself.But some days are really hard.I am way too critical about myself i have noticed i have become too critical of others although i would never state this openly,but i do criticize or judge others in my mind.I suddenly realize how hypocritical i can be. I started writing this context condemning how vicious others are but i guess i can be like that too.

What is wrong with us humans? I am sure its all our insecurities dancing out that makes us like this. Isnt it? i hope so.I refuse NOT to believe that deep down we all have some inherent good.